By John S.
One morning not too long ago, I was curled up on my sofa with a hot cup of Joe. The grooves of a vinyl record were being transformed into sound by the magic of diamonds and magnets. As the music filled the room and mixed with the aromas of coffee and morning-breath, I had a sharp and sudden mental break down.
There was the terrifying realization that nothing I was doing was natural or made sense. The delusion of “normal” life shattered over me like falling glass from a broken mirror. My idea of what being human was and what it meant to be me, was drowned out by fear and confusion. The lie of our existence had been exposed.
I looked around the room and thought, this is not a real environment for a human. This is an artificial cave filled with plastic and glass. It’s warm and safe but it isn’t where I’m supposed to be. The water is fluorinated and coming out of decorated metal pipes. The cool breeze is being produced and pushed out of a noisy metal box filled with motors and fans. Where are the streams and trees and fields?
It begs the question, where are we supposed to be as a 200,000 year old species living so extremely far outside of our natural state of being? The streams, trees and fields are obviously still out there but we don’t really have the knowledge to live off of them. We are hunter/gatherer apes that don’t know how to be what we really are.
Everything felt wrong. My clothing? Fake furs. My car? Fake horse. Don’t even get me started on food. People are obsessed with health food and buzz words but nothing we eat is real human food. None of the vegetables we consume ever existed until we manipulated the genes of wild inedible weeds. Even the animals we eat are designed by us to be eaten by us. There really is no such thing as all natural or non-GMO and nobody has a clue to what a natural human diet is.
Is this lie we all are born into why we go insane? Is it why we hurt each other even though we have decided that hurting each other is wrong? Is it that moment when the pet tiger after decades of love and affection mauls it’s owner. 200,000 year with a population under 1 billion and no light bulbs and suddenly there are seven billion of us with the power to illuminate the earth 24/7. The change happened in just the last 200 years. We have only spent 0.1 percent as a species living this way.
After a few nights of digesting what I had experienced and a few cocktails, I started to feel “normal” again in my home, in my car, in my city. It wasn’t too long however that it all came back and this time with a far greater fear and understanding. We are never going back. We will never be natural humans ever again. We aren’t equipped to do so, we would never survive. In the last few hundred years we built ourselves a train that only goes one way, further and further from nature.
We really are chimps in suits, playing pianos.